Gratitude and Abundance

Gratitude. Abundance. So hard to embrace these when we're feeling overwhelmed by illness, or extreme circumstances. When I am overwhelmed, all I want to do is crawl into a hole and escape. Gratitude and abundance are the furthest things from my mind and heart. Therefore, how do you turn your face around to see the joy and beauty in the world, when you're not feeling it in your heart? What does it for you? I keep reminding myself that HaShem is always before me--Sh'viti. Even if I can't feel the fullness of abundance and joy in my heart sometimes, I can be comforted to know that I am not alone.